Positivity

Dear Virtual Friend,

Today, I had a great chat with Joyce, a really good person. I am really thankful that we had that. I am extremely encouraged. How I wish that I’d have a lot of conversations like this.

Her words still lingers in my mind, and I wanna keep them their forever. She said, “it becomes harder and harder to meet real friends as you grow older” these words somehow explains why I am all by myself right now. But then, as I am typing, I realized how urgent it is for me to find a best friend.

Hmmmm… What to do?

Anyway, my crush recently posted something in her blog. So I kinda falling for her again. How I really wish to meet her and know her and have a great conversation with her.

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Dear Virtual Friend,
It is kinda awkward that up until now you I haven’t named you yet. But let it be this way since I haven’t thought of that.

For the mean time I want to tell you how lonely I become this past weeks. I hope you could help me ease this pain.

I had a six hour class. That is my class every tuesday, up until june. I have no complains about having a class so long. What kills me is the fact that even though I spent so much time in this class, still I haven’t had time to befriend and be friended by my classmates.

Just today, I heard Kit speaking with Marika, ” If we’d invite you to party with us, will you?”
Hearing those words being spoken by a classmate, and knowing the fact that it wasn’t spoken to me is seriously depressing that I had this frowning face as I went back home. Indeed, I am sad. I was just denial all these years..

I really want to have a friend. A real and nice friend. Someone who won’t use me and extort something from me.

Last term, in college, I had some people around. Later on, it turned out that they weren’t friends. I abhor these people. Users! Perhaps, I was too damned frustrated to have some friends that I turned a blind eye about the fact that they’re actually toying with me and using me. They took advantage of that and got a pretty lot of money from me. And that was enough reason for me to not see them anymore. They know that I am angry about it, but it’s like they don’t care. These people are the worst kind of people, full of evil to the root of their bones. I really regret that I let myself get corrupted by them and did some things that ruined my testimony as a christian. Good thing, the Lord is merciful enough to forgive. Last time, I saw one of them inside the campus. I can’t talk to them yet.

You see, I am so dying to just have a close friend, a nice one. Someone who will stop me from saying “I really like myself, because I’m always there when I needed me the most.”, because he will always be there. Someone I can laugh with to my heart’s content. A person who’ll be a partner in crime, you know, like Spongebob and Patrick. Someone whom I can be with when I go traveling. Or just someone who can make me say “indeed, there will always be people who will be there”

Last year, I really thought that I have close friends in the church. But later that year, they started going out without me. Our leader would be inviting all of them but not me. So I thought that these people doesn’t want to be with me, or perhaps, they just thought that I should not be in the group. That’s why right now, I dont expect much from them. Though, last time they invited me to someone’s crib.

Well, I had friends before. Back when we haven’t yet moved. These were my high school friends. And I remember, I had a best friend too. She’s a girl whom I had a crush on later. Then she never did call again after knowing.

As I am typing, I realized that all people just abandon me. Those people whom I would dear the most would just leave me behind and go on with their lives, without thinking about me. Even my sister left me and just passed away.

Being an introvert sucks when you always wanted to have people whom you can hang out with. My introversion has two sides. One is that I love being alone because nobody can offend me, but then I am also sad because I am all alone and it seem too unfair if I’d die with no friend at all while every young people have already filled their life with amazing experiences with their friends.

Living in the Suburbs

In a 3rd world country like the Philippines, poverty is rampant to the point that everyone literally says that they belong to the base of society’s pyramid, that they are the less fortunate, that they are afflicted, that they are being raped by the most influential, the most powerful and the most rich in the land. Everyone claims that. Even that person seated on a nice comfortable couch has this line. Honestly, That is my script. Or should I say “was”. After I visited my mum the other day, since it was part of my plan during my summer vacation, I was brought to an eye opening fact. And this truth made me realize how jaw dropping the life of these people living in the suburban.

In the morning, we woke up around 7. Since everybody sleeps altogether in the living room, which is also the dining room or sometimes the kitchen, and even everybody’s closet, all are obliged to wake up as early as that first person who decides to get up from the not-so-comfortable comforter which is shared by us, my mom, her husband, her husband’s sister-in-law, her husband’s niece, and another niece, then me. Yes, all six of us slept in that multipurpose room which by the way is approximately 3m by 3m in total area.

Aside from the size and the looks of the place, another thing that I noticed which made me feel guilty of complaining a lot is the meal that was served for us. For breakfast, we were given some slices of bread and a mixture of coffee and milk formula. In the afternoon for lunch, we were served with some fish fried with too much oil. And for the dinner we were given some chicken which were bought in the dirty market already cooked which cost them 2 cents (in US dollars). I was alarmed by this, having in mind that I am with two toddlers who need nutritious meals.

As we were spending the day together, I felt sad for these people. Their only past time is to sleep, stare to the almost wearing television, play with the only toy in the house and eat. So basically, everything is a routine. Wake up. Eat. Watch tv. Take a bath. Play the toy. Eat lunch. Sleep. Wake up. Watch tv. Eat. Play. Go to the neighbor. Go back to house. Eat. Watch tv. Sleep. The thing that will only break this routine is the irregular job of the adults which could include the children, since they can’t be left by themselves in the house.

Reflecting to this, I realized that I have no right to complain about what is happening to me or what is not. Before, I thought that I am missing so much in this life. I have a heart for adventure, like mountaineering, traveling, spelunking and surf boarding, diving into some different culture. I love all these, but I’ve done not even twenty percent of them, and I hated that. But now that I experienced a day with these simple yet cool and funny people, I hate the fact that I hated and complained so much.

Sometimes, we are so much stressed out thinking about the things we haven’t yet done or experienced. We even make plans on how and when to do them. We are giggling in the thought of them -traveling, obtaining gadgets or cars or luxurious houses, partying all night long for three straight days. All of these are not bad in themselves (except for the last one). We should never stop dreaming. It is our right to enjoy life as we know it. It is our right to dream for ourselves. However, perhaps it would be nicer if we will also start dreaming for others.

How about making the homeless smile? How about giving the unfortunate some healthy meal? Or some nice clothes? How about visiting the orphanage? I believe that there is something we can do. Only if we will be willing. How about start doing something today?

Old and New

Dear Virtual Friends,

I traveled here where I was once. It is where I grew. And when I say “where I grew” I don’t mean the physical growth but rather more of the attitude, the character and the spiritual stuffs.

You see, I haven’t seen these people for like these whole time when I went to college. Even communications we have none, though there’s facebook and phones. And as I stayed here for like 2 days, I realized how I changed, how I become now as a person, how I am now different from them (mostly negative) and how I missed these people so much. Throughout those years when I was away, I really thought that I am becoming way better than them and that I am growing faster than them. I was wrong.

These past few days, when I realized that the people I come to know as new friends are not actually seeing me as how I see them, I was so lonely. I told myself, “I need to talk to someone.” A lot of thoughts entered my mind. It was like a hundred set of percussions are inside my head and all of them are randomly played all at the same time. It was hard. However, coming to this place is such a relief, knowing that these people won’t let go of the thought of me, knowing that I still belong here and that I am still a part of this group.

Perhaps, I just expect a lot from my new group of friends in my new community church, especially to our “life group leader”. I thought I was in the inner circle and I was hoping that I am. Sadly, I wasn’t.

One thing I learned from this, “You can never push your way through to someone’s life and just go away after everything because that is terrible”. I did this to my old friends and my new friends did it to me. It was a lesson learned the hard way.

 

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Vacation With A Friend: Day 3

Dear Virtual Friends,

This is the last day of this trip and I’m kinda sad thinking that we are about to leave tomorrow dawn. However, thinking that I truly enjoyed this is much of a beauty than that negative idea. (Also, I don’t want to spoil everyone with negativity now, do I? )

One thing for sure, trekking in a random place here in the Philippines is absolutely awesome. It is like walking in the midst of the unknown where a lot of stunning creatures await, where a lot of breathtaking sceneries are beautifully arranged as if someone is anticipating a traveler’s pilgrimage. Β I am a living witness to this since this is what we just did today, with Peter, Philip and Uncle Remy

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We first looked for somebody who can accompany us throughout this unknown. We don’t want to get lost now, do we?

Bahay Kubo

Bahay Kubo

 

The local has pets. They were adorable kitty cats. I’m more into dogs though.

The local has cats

The local has cats

I wanted to ask the local whether I can bring this home, but I was shy to ask. So cool!!!

Lomo Radio

Lomo Radio

Here’s Manong, a local who helped us in getting some coconuts and star apples.

A local getting coconuts for free

A local getting coconuts for free

He gave us unlimited coconuts, for real. Loco over Cocos!

Unlimited Coconuts for free

Unlimited Coconuts for free

And the trekking continues…

Bamboo

Bamboo

Slide for fun

Slide for fun

Uncle Remi, Peter and Philip

Uncle Remi, Peter and Philip

 

Resting is a good thing, especially if you have all day.

Sun Burst 1

Sun Burst 1

Sun Burst 2

Sun Burst 2

Then Trek again

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Somebody was here

Wild Carabao

Wild Carabao

It's summer and the  earth feels it

It’s summer and the earth feels it

This one looks like “The Shire”

Curves

Curves

Stunning

Stunning

 

Sigh… I will surely miss this. To encourage myself, let’s think that this end is a new chance for me to visit new places. I mean, how can we be prepared for better things if we are not letting go of the old, right? After all, we won’t completely let it go, since we have a lot of photos to look at everytime we miss the place.

Before I end this blog post, I want to thank God for the beauty He has created and for giving me such heart that appreciates every single detail of it. And I want to encourage everyone to have the same kind of mind that appreciates beauty. Now, after all of this, who could say that there is no God? Seriously.

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Vacation With A Friend: Day 2

Dear Virtual Friends,

I woke up drooling my bed and I know that that is something I should be ashamed of. Now, how am I supposed to leave this bed? I realized that I woke up because the room seemed to be bright. It’s the morning light. It’s beautiful though. I reached for my watch since I can’t see any wall clock here and it was 7:30 in the morning. In my head, I was like, “darn I should still be

asleep right now!” (I am still sleepy since I slept 2 am)

Morning Daylight

Morning Daylight

 

Later, we woke up then took breakfast. We were served by Phoebe with a black and white rice cakes (the white one is better) and really nice local coffee, which was followed up by some fresh lettuce and pickled cucumber.

White and Black Rice Cakes

White and Black Rice Cakes

As we were eating, I and Phoebe had a conversation which really stirred me up. I realized, speaking with older people who have so much experiences is empowering, inspiring and encouraging, because knowing that these people have overcome all of it is knowing that all of us can too.

The highlight of the day is the fulfillment of my one-month-dream. After watching the movie Donnie Darko, I always dream of riding a bike till I get lost. Well, it happened today! I, together with Peter and Philip, rent some bikes and ride our way throughout the town and out of the town till we came to this remote place, where the view really took our breath away.

 

 

Biking throughout the city

Biking throughout the city

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The famous Philippine Refreshment: Halo Halo

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How about biking on a hanging bridge?

 

Environment Develoopment

Environment Development

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Biking Along the Alley

 

Into The Wild

Into The Wild

 

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A Tower in the Middle of the Wild

 

A Road To Somewhere

A Road To Somewhere

 

As we were biking, we didn’t notice the time. It was Philip’s graduation day and we could be late, so we rushed back and prepared for the ceremony.

Elementary graduation in a basketball court.

Elementary graduation in a basketball court.

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A public school classroom

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Street Foods

 

Celebration :D

Celebration πŸ˜€

 

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Vacation With A Friend: Day 1

Dear Virtual Friends,

Sadly, the first day of our vacation officially started around 1 pm since we left the shade of that prestigious ceiling that late. As agreed, I can only come with Peter here in Quezon as long as he’s the boss. So we went to places that seriously concerns him ONLY.

First, we stopped to his dentist. And yes, he only sees the dentist when he comes here, and yes, he comes here so seldom. Going there, we rode this Jeepney that looks so unusually nice. There’s so many sign boards inside. Surely, when you’re inside you’ll know all of the unwritten rules in riding a jeepney.

 

Jeepney at its finest

Jeepney at its finest

After the teeth operation, we went to Peter’s friends in a radio station. The place is so cool, sad thing I can only post one photo here. I also met a lot of DJ’s there. I even witnessed a DJ speaking live!!!! What a privilege!

Awesome CD Stacks at Love Radio

Awesome CD Stacks at Love Radio

The next thing we know, it’s already sunset and it’s time to travel once again to another town, Lopez Town, where we will be meeting the family.

As Darkness Falls Comes the Beauty of Light

As Darkness Falls Comes the Beauty of Light

Here’s a photo of one of the largest bus terminals in the Philippines, the Lucena Grand Terminal.

 

Night Lights

Night Lights

We got on a bus that is much different from the bus we took last night. This is the exact opposite of it. It smells like a sweaty locker room, not air conditioned and the whole thing squeaks as it moves.

 

Somehow bored, at the same time annoyed by Peter’s snore, I took some photos as we were inside the bus.

Creepy Provincial Road Signs

Creepy Provincial Road Signs

When the bus stopped, I took the phone out the window and randomly took a photo :D

When the bus stopped, I took the phone out the window and randomly took a photo πŸ˜€

 

Right now, we’re here at Lopez, Quezon. It’s already 1 am and we’re up still. Once again, I met Peter’s mum Phoebe, his dad Remy and his brother Philip. They are indeed a cool family, especially Phoebe who cooks so good. I love being here and I don’t want to go back to Manila!!!!!

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Vacation With a Friend: Arrival

Dear Virtual Friends,

Last week, I’ve been trying to convince my friend, an existing person, not virtual, Β named Peter, to travel with me. He is a dude who is really matured about everything. I guess that’s the reason why we became friends, because everything we talk about has a lot of sense, and we both like creativity, art, innovation and greatness. I failed in asking him to come with me in a travel. He wasn’t travelling with me because right now, I am travelling with him. Those are two different things because in this travel, he is the pack master and I go wherever he goes. Basically, I’m just going with where he wants to be.

I can’t be choosy and say “No!, we go where I want to go”. First because, he’s the only person I can think off who’s gonna agree of this trip. Secondly because my time is running and I can’t afford to waste some time since I only got 3 weeks to enjoy this summer vacation. And lastly because he is the only person I know who will be travelling within this span of 3 weeks. That’s why last night, after the youth service at the church, we packed some clothes, put some money in the pockets and left Manila, and we’re planning to be out of the city in a short period of 3 days.

Where are we headed? To the province of Quezon where his parents and siblings resides. Yeah, so basically, this trip is about Peter’s reunion with his family and I don’t think that we will be able to maximize the time to enjoy the place. But it’s fine with me and I guess that should be better since his family is really nice to me the last time I went there with some other friends from the church. So, I’m looking forward to be back there and socialize and talk and eat with them and do some crazy stuffs with them, Peter’s family.

We left Manila at 11 pm and rode this bus that looks so nice with its orange light.

 

 

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(The seemingly five-star bus)

In the bus ( I can’t afford not to say this) I was so paranoid that somebody might rob our bags since we were sleeping. haha πŸ˜€ Fortunately, my imaginations stayed in my head and didn’t come to life.

We arrived at Lucena, Quezon at 3 am. Tired of the activities yesterday, we stopped over at Peter’s Aunt’s house where we stayed and rest for a while. Now, it’s already 1 pm and we’re still here, enjoying their comfy room and the food being served to us.Β C360_2014-03-27-13-50-38-068[1]

(Peter, about to ride the jeepney)

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(Amazed by their ceiling, I took a photo of it)

I am so excited to what will happen today!!!!!! (Shouting inside of my head) I realize, sometimes it’s also good not to have plans at all. Somehow, in spending a vacation like this, it’s better not to plan something and just be stunned of what might come. And that is what I am so excited about right now.

 

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Sunday Morning

Finally, it’s over! Classes are over and here I am complacently seated in front of my computer as I genuinely enjoying my cup of creamy coffee blended with cocoa. It’s such a nice sunday morning, ornamented by such beautiful music.

Aaaah, what a morning πŸ™‚ And since it’s vacation, I made a “Vacation Plans Corner” in my room and here it is:Photo-0010(Is it too gay? Darn, okay I’m removing them!!!!!)

Basically, my vacation will be about travels, blogging, coffee, books and ooh, I almost forgot, I and my friend are going to make a youtube channel.

By the meantime, I almost forgot, grades are to be posted later at 12 online. Geez, why am I forgetting a lot o important things. Hmmm… hoping for a good and nice grades.

I’m smiling and I’m dancing to the beat. Why is that? Is it because it is Sunday morning and I am able to go to church again? Hmm… yes, it is because of that. And also, because I’m in good mood and it is vacation, and I want to refrain posting some negativity here in my blog πŸ™‚

Thank you for reading, my virtual friends πŸ™‚
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